We need to look what is the shaytan that is inside of us, that is giving us hopelessness. Because Allah is continuing giving us hope and mercy. What is the egoistic characteristics that is inside of us that is saying, ‘no, don’t believe in the hope of your Lord, in the forgiveness of your Lord.’ Find that. Don’t listen to it. Don’t give it importance. You have a Sheykh, listen to what your sheykh is saying. Trust your sheykh more than your ego. Your ego is saying, ‘oh, I did so much….’ Okay, you did, you did. You did something wrong. I’m not going to sit here to say, ‘never mind, it’s okay, you can do…’ No! you did something wrong, you want to be forgiven, go to Sejdah and ask for forgiveness. Pull yourself out from the company of your ego. And be in the company and in the jamaat of the Salihin. Be in the company and the jama’at of the Awliya Allah. You are going to find Allah most forgiving, most merciful. You are going to find yourself clean.
If you take one step, Allah is saying, ‘I’ll take ten steps.’ ‘You come to Me walking, I’ll come to you running.’ But don’t be sitting there on your behind and expect Allah to come to you. Then later to say, ‘ohh, I don’t have hope.’ Because that is also a trick from the ego!